Deep Thawts

The things that made me different that I was so eager to escape
Are things I miss about myself the most
Just wish I knew how to remember what those were

My Thoughts

I didn't ask for that
I didn't ask for you
I didn't ask for you to say that

I didn't want you to hate me
Or find a reason to hate what I said
I didn't want this at all

You left me, remember?
Stop spinning it around.

Deep Thoughts Vol. 1

Because we have nothing
Because everything needs help
Because we cannot save it all
Do we not help anything
Do we all have to stay broken
Can we not help anyone
Are we really that selfish?
Are we?

Fancy Words

I've picked up a habit of erasing pasts that were never mine
Of making hurt go away that I never caused
The only thing that's bad is I seem to fade away with these fates

Your dissent and inability to feel was just dressed in lace
Or maybe I mistook the pretty spider web
The pink in your cheeks was just faded red

The new track was just the skipping CD
The bonus features were just a glitch in the film
All I am trying to say now is this was all just placebo, don't make excuses

ATL

Overloading.

I can't think.

Can't hardly catch my breath.

Are there really people who just aren't supposed to be happy?

I've read enough angsty online diaries to know that I'm not the only one who wonders.

Is it that irrational to think I could be the exception to the rule

"Everyone Deserves Happiness"

Everyone else seems... excused from poor habits.

From being irrational.

From being boring.

From being sarcastic.

From having no redeeming qualities

I'm tired of being angsty, and just a typical teen

So typical to think that

And fitting my little made-up cliches

And tired of my past determining my present but not my future

I'm tired of hurting people.

It's not that unrealistic.

To think you can go without hurting someone.

It seems so simple, just snap, no more hurting for anyone.

Goddamnfuckinghealthclass.

Night. <3>